New Name... Why a sudden U turn?

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh

This is the 1st post since the last post. The last post was posted during the era of Pak Cik Bushu Thought That ... . This new post is posted under the new name Hafiz Safwan Thought That ...

Whats' wrong with the name? some might ask this question.. well.. I guess it's time for me to move on.. to start fresh and to be mature...starting with the new name...my real name

Final Post...

It's been a very long journey..

I've been thinking about this..
and came to this decision.

To finally stop writing anything in this blog.

People change by time... Considering that I'm more matured than I was before..
I've decided to make a new page to suit the new me.

Good Bye Pak Cik Bushu Thought That...

Welcome to..what ever came after this..still haven't decide yet.

Regards,
Pak Cik Bushu

Motivasi diri... Bagaimana sekeping kertas dan sebatang pen mampu membantu

Setiap manusia akan ada ketikanya dia berasa sangat tidak bermotivasi...

Ada banyak sebab2 untuk nak jadi 'down'. Antaranya :
1. Baru lepas clash daaa

2. Kena marah ngan boss...walaupun kekadang tu bukan salah dia pun..

3. Terdapat beberapa rentetan peristiwa yang mewujudkan situasi seperti 'Sudahlah jatuh, ditimpa tangga pulak tu'. 

4. Dan sebagainyalah...(pandai2 lah korang)

Tipulah kalau aku kata aku tak pernah bersedih. Tipulah kalau aku kata aku tak pernah mengalirkan air mata. (Dalam hati gua ada taman jugak beb)

Cuma kadang2, kita perlu sedar bahawa sedih dan tidak bersemangat itu boleh menghancurkan kita. Tanpa kita sedar..melayan perasaan sambil mendengar lagu2 tangkap leleh itu adalah suatu perbuatan yang tidak baik untuk MASA DEPAN. Buang Masa.... apatah lagi ketika di saat anda sedang melakukan sesuatu yang penting untuk masa depan anda..seperti sedang melalui final exam..lagi seminggu dekat UPSR..(hehehe)

Pengalaman paling perit adalah pada bulan puasa tahun lepas. Tanpa sedar, aku hilang kawalan terhadap kemarahan aku...dan akhirnya... (hmmm i think i should stop here...let's just say that I'm not in my best condition at the critical time of my life).

Pada ketika tu, aku kena siapkan eksperimen aku yang dah lama tertangguh. Aku ada beberapa test yang aku perlu prepare. Dan aku juga seorang peer tutor untuk fakulti yang mana pada malam hari kejadian tu aku ada kelas untuk diajarin.

Cara aku motivate diri aku adalah dengan berulang kali berkata pada diri sendiri - " do...or die,"

Buat...atau mati...

Beri pilihan pada diri sendiri..nak buat ka tak nak buat?..kalau tak mau buat baik mati saja...

Pada masa yang sama..berfikir secara objektif... Aku tak nafikan yang agak susah...tapi 'do or Die' kan...so..kena buat jugaklah..

SUSAH....tapi TAK MUSTAHIL

(Waktu tgh down tu...tetiba nangis..tetiba rasa nak tumbuk pintu...tetiba rasa cam nak nek moto laju2....normal la tu..tapi ingat...kena berfikir secara objektif)

Susun kepala otak hangpa ikut keutamaan.. Ok.. maksudnya di sini. Ketika Allah sedang uji kita dengan beberapa cabaran seperti keadaan saya yang saya dah describe kat atas tu, fikiran kita akan serabut.

Jadi..untuk membantu menyusun kepala hotak yang serabai tu, sila segera dapatkan sehelai kertas dan sebatang pen atau pensel.

Contenglah apa korang nak conteng.. tapi...mestilah berkaitan dengan CABARAN2 yang perlu anda hadapi.

cthnya:

CABARAN 1: Perasaan Sedih, kuciwa, marah, terkilan (Baru lepas KECEPER - kecewa percintaan lah katakan)

priotity: (((Bergantung kepada cabaran lain)))

Perlu pikir ke? -  Kalau ada masa boleh laa...jap nak tgk cabaran len plak..later I'll come back to this..ok

CABARAN 2: FYP

Priority: HIGHEST!!! (Giler ko..nak grad wooo)

Perlu pikir ke? - Ko nak mampus kalau tak pikir....

Apa perlu ko buat? - Dah schedule eksperimen petang ni..so kena pegi..pas tu... pastu... pastu...

Kesimpulan: It's do...or DIE

CABARAN 3: Design Project

Priority: Highest jugak...

Perlu pikir ke? - Perluuuuuuu...tapi....jap..rasanya dah setel lah....a'ah..dah setel.....

Kesimpulan: NEXT!!!!!!!!!!!!

CABARAN 4: Test KJM ****, MEC ****. ENT ****

Priority: Medium (Gua tak stadi pun leh jawab beb..common sense)

Perlu pikir ke? - Confirm semua test tunda....so....KIV lah..

Kesimpulan: NEXT

CABARAN 5: Kelas Peer Tutor Malam ni

Priority: HIGHEST!!!! (Sebab ada elaun...tak berkat pulak kalau tak pi)

Perlu pikir ke? - Jgn zalim pada orang lain...depa mai nak belajaq..

Kesimpulan: ok..nak prepare 2 soalan untuk depa jawab dalam kelas malam ni

CABARAN seterusnya rasanya dah takdak...so let's look back at the first Challenge.

CABARAN 1: Perasaan Sedih, kuciwa, marah, terkilan (Baru lepas kecewa percintaan lah katakan)

priotity: Setelah di amati..memang tak sesuai melayan perasaan sekarang..so..KIV lah.. - 

LOWEST PRIORITY

Perlu pikir ke? - SANGAT TAK PERLU

Kesimpulan: I NEED MYSELF NOW...I need to be reliable to myself now...IT IS MY FUTURE!!! so...sorrylah perasaaan2 sedih, kuciwa, marah, terkilan n so on...Gua ada banyak mende lein gua kena pikir la skarang..kalau free leh arr layan.

Ini cuma sample (((BERDASARKAN PERBUALAN DENGAN DIRI SAYA SENDIRI...tapi contoh jer laa)))...mungkin boleh membantu..mungkin tidak 

Apa yang saya boleh kongsikan di sini..ini adalah cara untuk saya motivasi dari saya sendiri. Mungkin ada yang bersetuju..mungkin ada yang mempunyai idea yang lebih baik

mungkin...mungkin... saya tak tahu...

But it works for me..

the key word is "It's do..or Die,"

Pak Cik Bushu suka cakap menda ni:

"Masalah akan terus jadi masalah...cuba refer masalah itu sebagai cabaran...lebih menarik..lebih bermotivasi...lebih positive,"

Regards,

Mohd Hafiz Safwan

Saya sebagai orang yang gagal.... :)

Assalamualaikum W.B.T

Tajuk tak leh blah..

Lama benar tak menulis...tetiba jadik gatal tangan balik. Penangan blog Hami Asraff... tidak kutahu yang dia merupakan seorang blogger yang hebat... :)

Good for you bro..Alhamdulillah

Tentang tajuk hari ini. Aku terpanggil untuk menulis selepas berbicara dengan si Hami nih tentang pencapaian.

Tidak aku nafikan...wujud perasaan yang negatif dalam diri bila menyedari bahawa aku seorang lelaki berusia 28 tahun yang baru tamat pengajian DEGREE dan baru bulan ke-2 bekerja di sebuah GLC yang buat kereta (Paham2 lah) sebagai seorang executive cabuk. memandu kereta ayahanda dan motosikal yamaha lagenda 110Z untuk berulang alik ke tempat kerja. menyewa di s7 shah alam bersama rakan2 yang sedang menyambung pengajian di peringkat masters.

Satu persepsi killer dari rakan2 sekerja bila mengetahui yang aku fresh grad dan berusia 28 tahun adalah -> "Owh...mesti kerja dulu sebelum belajar,"

aku tak berselindung dengan mengiakan pernyataan sedemikian..aku jelaskan..
"Saya kena tendang dari UTM selepas tahun kedua saya di sana,"

"Saya mula balik dari awal sebab qualification untuk masuk UTM adalah matrik. Hanya UiTM (fewwwwittttt) sahaja yang menerima saya sebagai pelajar. Bermula dengan diploma kejuruteraan mekanikal, saya teruskan ke peringkat ijazah kerana kata2 ibu saya,"

"Saya lewat 3-4 tahun dari rakan2 sebaya saya yang lain. Gaji mereka kini sudah berapa, kedudukan mereka kini sudah di mana....saya masih lagi tiada apa-apa."

Tanpa sedar...kata2 itulah yang selalu saya ucapkan pada setiap penanya...

Saya lupa nikmat yang Allah beri pada saya.

Saya lupa tentang peluang kedua yang saya terima.

Saya lupa tentang beruntungnya saya kerana ada ibu bapa yang sangat prihatin dan memberi semangat, dorongan dan berMATI-MATIAN untuk menanggung pelajaran saya.

Saya ada ramai rakan2 yang memberikan sokongan.

Saya ada segalanya...mengapa kegagalan itu yang saya lihat sedangkan kejayaan saya sudah ada di depan mata.


Baru beberapa jam yang lepas, saya mendengar tentang kekesalan seorang brader (tuan rumah sewa) tentang peluang2 yang telah beliau sia-siakan di waktu bujangnya dulu.

Saya tak suka bila beliau katakan yang beliau kesal...dan saya muhasabah diri saya balik....Saya lagi teruk dari beliau..saya pun buat perkara yang sama setiap kali ditanya tentang kisah silam saya.

Saya berbangga dengan siapa diri saya sekarang. Saya berbangga dengan insan2 yang berada disekeliling saya sekarang. Saya redha dengan apa yang saya lalui sekarang. Saya sedar yang masih banyak hutang saya pada keluarga, cikgu2, UiTM masih lagi belum berbayar (selain hutang konvo, saman dan library laa)

:)

Saya takkan dapat apa yang saya ada sekarang tanpa pengalaman2 lepas.. ada sesuatu yang baik yang telah Allah rencanakan untuk saya dan semua orang. Kalau tak di dunia..di dunia yang kekal abadi...AKHIRAT

I guess,,,that's the price i have to pay

Aku marah..pada masa yang sama aku rasa rindu..pada masa yang sama aku terkilan...pada masa yang sama aku tak faham..pada masa yang sama aku rasa geram..pada masa yang sama aku rasa macam nak...



Semua tu ujian..nak tgk sama ada aku layak untuk dia atau tak. Bulan 6 yerr...bulan 6... kalau saya kena bedah..mungkin bulan 8..tapi macam yang pernah saya janjikan..Tahun Ni...

ACL lutut kiri ku putus...Live Coverage from KPJ Bandar Perda

I’m writing from my bed, currently warded at KPJ Bandar Perda, to facilitate investigation and assessment to my left knee injury. After done with x-ray and MRI, the doctor (Dr. Naharuddin) confirmed that my ACL (Anterior cruciate ligament) is completely severed. Glad that the meniscus is in good condition although the injury was an old one.




Next is physiotherapy.




The ACL reconstruction will be done in a month or 2..the doctor want to wait till the swelling subsided first.




Sejuk je rasa tulang bila dengar “Putus habis, Konfem kena reconstruct,”




2 biji skru..6 minggu recovery period..6 month b4 full recovery..

INTERLOK!!!

http://amirmu.blogspot.com/2011/01/how-we-failed-interlok.html

Read it....

New Year Resolutions!!!!

New year mark my new age..

I'm 27 years old 4 month n a day old..but I am 28 years old this year.

before this..I don't have a clear target for each year...Now I'm going to start to have one.

My 2011 target:

1. Be a better servant of GOD.
2. A better son.
3. A better eldest brother.
4. Get a job
5. Start to save some money.
6. Register for Haj.
7. Buy a 2nd hand car.
8. Healthier lifestyle
9.
10. Less weight
11. Less optimistic, more realistic n pessimistic.



Any other  suggestions??????

The End, Interviews and A Smile

The End

I started my degree studies on December 2007. As a 24 years old degree student, I realised that I was way behind others who are at the same age as mine.

During my 1st semester in Shah Alam, I met an old friend who uttered "Ko tak habis2 menyusahkan mak bapak ko ek," when I told him that I continue my study there. He graduated and was an MLMers during his studies. Quite a successful cheaters (if you ask me bout him..I know everything he did).

Initially, I refused to go for bachelor studies. It was my mother who talk me in to it. After 6 semesters..the ordeal ended on 26 November 2010 when I submitted my finalised report. Later on 10 December, it was confirmed that I finished my bachelor studies with 2nd class upper. Finally...It's the end of the final episode of The Dropout, 2nd season.

All the sweat, tears, blood, money and time had been paid off. It's all because of my parents. They work hard to support me because I didn't have any scholarship or loan.

Thank You Mak n Bapak...Thank You...Thank You

Alhamdulillah..I finally finish off things that I've started 8 years ago.

4 December 2010 - My last day as tenant in 59, Jalan Kristal 7/78... It is a wonderful neighborhood..nice people..nice environment..I will dearly miss that place and the neighbours.

Interviews

Currently I am in job hunting mode. Attended few interviews and applied numbers of vacancies..so far..no luck yet..



A Smile

Beautiful Smiley Face :)  - You might be reading it now...hahaha

It's funny n weird when we look at where a smile could bring us too. With a shear of luck and thanks to the enhancement of today's technology on social networking, I finally met the owner of the beautiful smile which I was looking for months. Glad to meet u smiley face!!!  :)

Tears...

Hi all..

I shed tears when I wrote this

I dedicate this to my father and mother

Md Rijani Bin Md Ibrahim

Hamidah Bt Sukaroo

They are the reason why I'm still fighting.

Mak dan bapak di Mina, Bapak dah bercukur menandakan keluar ihram (Tahalul Awal)

I was preparing my 2nd draft at that time. Alone in my room, that sentences means a lot to me

Yup...I miss them very much...but that's not the main reason.

I saw mak..shedding tears when she learned that I got kicked out from UTM. That was more than six years ago.

I saw myself 9, 6 and 3 years ago.

The words marked then end of my degree. Definitely not something that could be proud of...but..better late than never...

July 2004 - I learned that I was kicked out from UTM, at that time I was a substitute teacher in a school where currently my father is the headmaster. Mak's tears......
November 2004 - Enrolled for diploma in UiTM Penang
November 2007 - The end for diploma.
December 2007 - Continue studying for a degree in Shah Alam
November 2010 - my tears...

Ya Allah, permudahkanlah perjalanan hidupku, tetapkanlah iman ku, peliharalah diriku agar dapat aku berbakti kepada umat Muhammad, negaraku dan ibubapaku.

I am not the same as I was 15 years ago

I afraid of being alone on the stage. Either talking or performing to crowds, the idea of public speaking was too far away for me to handle. Why?

My Hands Trembling -
My Heart Racing and thumping like it's going to explode.
I would suddenly be insecure of myself...is my pants zipped? Is there anything on my head or behind me?
Gagap!
mumbling...blablabla

Until one day...and a class, and some experience gained during my university period...it is all in the past.

 3/4 individuals suffers from speech anxiety
I was one of the 75% during my teenage years
There's a class conducted by Mrs Shila Razlan for kids age 9 -14 years old to improve their public speaking skills.

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Doa yang ku kirim

Ya Allah, Ya Rahman, Ya Rahim.

Aku mohon padamu Ya Allah,

Permudahkanlah urusanku,

Jadikanlah ilmu yang engkau kurniakan pada ku berguna untuk agamaMU, ibu bapaku, kaum keluargaku, guru-guruku dan rakan2ku.

Aku mohon padamu..

Permudahkanlah urusanku, jangan lalaikan aku dengan dunia agar aku tak lagi terpesong dari jalanMU.

Tunjukkanlah aku jalan yang benar, jalan yang Engkau redhai. Tunjukkanlah jalan yang patut aku ambil selepas semua yang aku lalui ini berakhir.

Sesungguhnya Engkau yang Maha Mengetahui isi hati aku ini.

Jauhkanlah dia dari segala gangguan. Rahmatilah dia dan permudahkanlah urusan hidupnya.

Kalau dia buruk untuk aku dan keluarga aku, jauhkanlah dia dari aku.

Kalau dia yang terbaik untuk aku dan keluargaku, engkau dekatkanlah dan mudahkanlah urusan kami berdua.

Kurniakanlah aku jodoh yang terbaik untuk ku.

Ya Rahman, Ya Rahim, Ya Hafiz, Ya Hakim, Ya Azim, Ya Jabbar, Ya Mutakabbir. Ya Samii, Ya Zal Jala Liwal Ikram

Love

can really drive us mad...



Love Allah..
Love your parents,
Love your friends and family
Love those who treated you right.
Love those who REALLY care about you..



































I feel stupid..I am..

Politic - are you partisan or a thoughtful person?

I am a student of University Technology MARA. I'm bounded by Act 174 and because of that, I can't show which side I am although I am a registered voter. 

Fine..I'm ok with it. In fact, it doesn't bother me at all. I voted in the last PRU and I'm ok with the fact that I can't be on any side of the politics. It doesn't bother me at all.

Years after... I realize that I don't bother of becoming a member in any party..It doesn't annoy me..It didn't make me a sad person..and I'm not angry with the Act..

Because I don't know which party to chose..Seems like both sides are not my type...both sides are surprisingly have the same agenda...Both sides have the same mental capacity of an amoeba...Both sides make the same mistakes..Both sides did do something really good and the other side would make an issue out of it...Both sides want Malaysia for themselves..

Sadly..this is Malaysia..

And I'm proud to say that I'm not member of any party.

I'm a thoughtful person.

What's wrong is wrong and what's right is right.

My vote will go to those who do the right thing the most... 

So...Plz stop doing foolish thing..If you care about my vote.

 

'A Male's Perspective on Love' by Aidi Amin (NST)

I came across this while reading the online NST.
A good piece...

Girls, plz take note..

Original Link - Click HERE

A male's perspective on love

2010/09/19
By Aidi Amin
aidiamin@nst.com.my

CHILDREN show off their feelings unabashedly. There is a lot we can learn from them.

More often than not, I get cornered by friends -- girls -- once madly in love with their boyfriends but now swear they hate their guts. I will end up becoming the emotional punching bag for these distraught women.

Asked what brought about the massive "paradigm shift" in their feelings, these girls would say that they did not get a favourable response when they asked their boyfriends "What are we?" after a few weeks of dating.

Indeed, status is important. It is everything. For status, nations are willing to go to war. Women, and sometimes men, would go to great lengths to have the status of their relationships defined.

What is the definition of a relationship after dating for a certain period of time?

Social media sites such as Facebook have a convenient method for people to define their relationships. One can change the status in a split second, and sometimes without much thought. Many don't dwell on its significance. One can be "single", "in a relationship", or leave the status as "it's complicated" on Facebook. But if a guy's status remains "single" after dating someone for a while, the girl he is seeing might become frustrated and start having doubts.

But truth be told, contrary to what most women think, guys are not insensitive creatures. We are just practical.

And our actions often speak louder than words. Men are creatures of habit. Observe the way we treat you. Does your man lend you moral support? Is he reliable? Does he leave you in the lurch in times of need?

I believe that relationships should never be divided into stages. If you think your man is delaying commitment then ask yourself, "Am I happy with him?"

Relationships are not meant to be perfect. Conflict is healthy. It can strengthen a relationship if resolved properly.

Always ask yourself why you embarked on this journey with this guy in the first place.

Women must also know this -- as much as a guy might love you, it will dissipate if you keep on forcing him to do things against his will. Every time we resign ourselves to your wishes or accede to them, resentment will build up.

There are the men who abhor the word "commitment", but most just want to know more about the women they are going out with before they choose to settle down and make her the mother of their children. Until then, these men might "multi-date". During this period, they might keep a certain distance and be non-committal.

Bear with them. If they see a future with you, they will bare all in time.

aidiamin@nst.com.my

Is it really that hard???

Seriously...

Raya..Raya...Raya

To blog readers..or passer by...Happy Eid Fitr

Sekarang waktu menunjukkan jam 1.20 pagi..Hari Jumaat, 10 September 2010.

Aku telah sampai di rumah orang tuaku di Nibong Tebal pada hari Selasa (7 September) yang lepas.

Raya..Satu perkara yang aku harap sangat2 tapi tak menjadi..Untuk menyambut raya bersama orang yang aku harap sgt untuk aku jadikan............

Takper..bukan rezeki...Not a reason to kill the excitement..but believe me...I'm really not in the mood..

A little bit about me..

Alhamdulillah..I get enough rest as soon as I arrived safely at my parents house...( only 3 hours of sleep for 72 hours).. Insomnia...Plzzzz..Go away...I know you have a very good reason to keep me awake..but I need to have a good rest or I'll stop functioning well..Plzzzzzzzzzz.

Alhamdulillah.. This year Raya will be more exciting since my brother is joining us..He wasn't here last year because he was in St. Petersburg, Russia. The worst Raya for me, my siblings and my parents.

Alhamdulillah.. I've finished my first batch of experiment with Faculty of Applied Science, UiTM..Kudos to Mr Ahmad Kambali (Lab Asst), PM Dr. Rohaya (Deputy Dean) and the post grad students who kept me occupied..

Alhamdulillah.. I'm better since the last 2 weeks..It's still killing me sometimes..And I'm still not stable emotionally..but I haven't burst out yet..since there is always someone who ease it up informally..

Alhamdulillah..
Alhamdulillah
Alhamdulillah

Selamat Hari Raya
Maaf Zahir dan Batin

Mohd Hafiz Safwan Bin Md Rijani
~Busu~
SRK Methodist N. Tebal 95
SMK Agama Nibong Tebal 00
SMK Methodist Nibong Tebal 00
SM Sultan Abdul Halim (Jenan) 00

Matrikulasi Kolej Taj 01/02
Red Sierra Rovers, Sekreteriat Rakan Muda, Fak. Kejuruteraan Mekanikal, UTM Skudai 02/06
JPK Mutiara, Fak. Kejuruteraan Mekanikal, UiTM Pulau Pinang 04-07
Fak Kejuruteraan Mekanikal, UiTM Shah Alam 07-10

Was it really that obvious?

I'm not bragging..

I am 27 years old..

Last year I was 26 years old when people tot that I'm 22 or at least 23 years old..(Yezzzzaaaaaa)Which made me grinning for days..

And today I was at FSG (Faculty of Applied Science), one of the postgrad student said this "Ye ke student degree...final year kan? tapi awak nampak macam dah berumur la..,"

and I was like...WTF!!! (oppsss...quickly acknowledge that I'm fasting)

I ask, "Nampak saya macam umur brapa?"

"30..camtu ar,"

I just cant believe it...

I'm cool at that time..It was just an ordinary conversation with a stranger..a lovely girl..

While waiting for the SPME (Solid Phase Micro Extraction) to develop, I sat down and start to think about it..

I'm not mad..I'm not exaggeratedly replied "muka ko macam makcik!!!," (Believe me she's not..hehehe)

No..I'm not...I'm cool..And I let my mind to try to understand it..


I walked out and went to the toilet..see myself in the mirror.. my eye bag...It's been a while.. Too tired ..due to the lack of sleep..and the effect of the petrol fumes..I smile to myself..and I quickly noticed that I am not as happy as I was..I faked it..

I always consider myself as a happy go lucky guy..even there are people who told me that If God's willing, I'll die smiling (Aminnnnn) because my default face is smiling...(more like grinning i guess)..


But seeing myself in the mirror at that particular time made me realise one thing...Everything inside me right now is being displayed..on my face...


Yes...I am in stress...but I manage my job well (I guess so because I haven't worried yet). Yes...I'm not emotionally healthy right now..and it was just less than a week ago...n I hate myself...


When you were pushed to the edge...It is either to fall or to move away from it...I fall..And that's why I am the one who took the blame.. And I blame myself..for putting my self in the situation that make my life miserable..

Job loads are the best remedy I have in Shah Alam...Yeah...It just offer a diversion during the day..and later at night...It is hard to get a good sleep..really hard..

The best sleep I had was a day after our relationship ended..why..because I was at home..I am with my parents, my siblings, my niece.

Currently...I'm still in Shah Alam...

Last post as a 26 years old guy...

It's 9.53 pm 30th August 2010.

Exactly 2 hours and 7 minutes..I'll be a year older...

well...to be exact..the time was 1.20 am...but officially..at 12 am..I am 27 years old.

I share the same birthday with Cik Da and Muiz Ishak (Friends from Matrik Taj 2001-2002)...along with Paman Sham (my mother's cousin)..There might be more..but it was as far as I know.

Happy Birthday to myself, Cik Da, Muiz, Paman Sham and those who were born on the same day...and not to be forgotten...it was also the birthday of a nation..Malaya.

Considering myself as a patriotic person...I realized that I owe the nation and the people much..And I know I should pay my debt to the society.

I'll be a year older..

With nothing to be proud of. (at the age of 26...I have nothing)

Without the one I was hoping to be my other half (Yup...back to numero uno..)..just days ago..

Without my family..(Currently I'm in Shah Alam)

........

Alhamdulillah..

I am blessed by Allah..

- I got the opportunity to redeem myself.
- Blessed with super supportive parents and siblings.
- Blessed with super supportive friends.
- Blessed with the superb conditions of life.
- Blessed with countless life changing experiences.
- Blessed with Superb teachers and lecturers.
- Blessed with the happy life I am having currently.
- Blessed to love and to be love...although it was just last for 259 days but it did taught me what's life is all about.
- Blessed with countless morale help from my family (parents and siblings..even my niece), my friends, my lecturer, seniors and even strangers...Yup...Strangers...believe it or not..I am blessed.
- Blessed with superb condition of health (my left knee is the only problem I have)
- Blessed with good grades..although I do wonder if I really earn it.

Alhamdulillah...Alhamdulillah

Alhamdulillah..

From The Bottom Of My Heart-

Thank You Mak n Bapak..You guys are the reason on why I never stop fighting..Thank You..

Thank You to my siblings - Hilmi n Hasni, Muim, Akmal n Izzati 

Thank You my friends - You guys are great..Thank you for lending me your ears and the shoulder to cry on. There are hundreds of you in my FB..And I treasure you guys more than the friends status in there...Thank You

Thank You - To my extended family member...Paman-Paman, Mamu-mamu, Bibik-bibik and Aunty-Aunty, cousins, second cousins, mom's cousins...pendek kata..Everyone lah..Everytime I land myself into trouble..I won't worry much because I know that my family are the best... 


Thank You - to strangers who sent by Allah to help me to overcome my emotions..To help me to realize that there are more important things to think about rather than being overcome by sadness that caused by a broken relationship.

Thank You - to my teachers and lecturers..who inspired me..who taught me well..and showered me with knowledge

Thank You Allah... Because they were all sent by You to help me..to make me a better person..to make me useful to them..and to make me love myself more..

Alhamdulillah..Alhamdulillah...Alhamdulillah...

Happy Birthday to me..

Mohd Hafiz Safwan Bin Md Rijani
31 Ogos 1983
1.20 am

The last thing I want it to happened

But it happened..

after 259 days.

It shows the true colour of mine..

It shows the ugliness of mine..

And all that happened in front of you..

I'm not a cheater..I am, but not to you..

You know my feeling towards you..and to see you in pain was the last thing I want to see..

To end our relationship was also the last thing that I wanted to.

But it happened..on the 259th day.

We both know and remember how it all started..we both know how we treat each other since the beginning of our relationship..We both know the mistakes that we've made towards each other..

It was my mistake..For failing to understand you more...

It was my mistake..

Yes...It was.

Thank you for everything..

Thank you....